Coulrophobia – Fear of Clowns

Have you ever gotten so fixated on a book, movie, tv-show, or person (fictional or real) to the point where it’s the only thing you think and talk about? If so, then great because that’s where I’m currently at! I’ve gotten hooked to a familiar clown character. You know her, Batman despises her. She’s the Cupid of Crime, the Maid of Mischief. That’s right, I’m talking about

Harley Quinn

Formerly known as Harleen Quinzel, this DC villain was a person of interest for me this past week. I finally got the chance to watch Birds of Prey which follows Harley’s journey right after she breaks up with the Joker. (Check out the Trailer!) I also have to add that Margot Robbie’s performance is incredible!

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After watching the movie, I thought it was suitable to listen to a podcast about the film (because who doesn’t love podcasts? Lots of people, I know). I went over to NPR’s episode of Pop Culture Happy Hour to get some second opinions. It turns out they loved the film just as much as I did! Not only that but at the end of each episode, they have a segment called “what’s making us happy this week.” Glen Weldon of NPR’s Arts desk shares that he’s interested in a show called Harley Quinn on the DC Universe streaming app. It is a cartoon show that is NOT meant for kids. 81z3o+phwTL._RI_Similarly to Family Guy, this animated series is meant for more mature audiences but still possesses the perfect amount of action and adult humor that it’s not considered downright “inappropriate.” I personally cannot stand shows and movies that are based solely on sexual content. While this show makes some sexual jokes, it never shows sexual content and I appreciate that. Each episode is around 20 minutes and has a focused plot (I only discovered it two days ago and already finished the first season). So if you’re searching for a new show that’s got action and relatable, sarcastic humor, then look no further!

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I definitely recommend this show and Birds of Prey to any DC Universe fans out there! It gives you a chance to watch some great content and to cheer for the villains (who might not be villains after all). Enjoy!


What Are You Afraid Of?

I bet you know this by now, but I am very interested in fears and phobias.  I was searching around and found this incredible artist (Shawn Coss) who portrays phobias in such a creative way.  Some of the images are a little graphic, but nothing too explicit.  I hope you find these images as intriguing as I do.  Sometimes I do research on phobias and how the mind interacts with fear when I’m bored (nerd alert).  One of my friends once asked me why I write about fear so much.  Though fear is more of a negative subject, my posts are not necessarily on the negative side; they’re about how relatable these fears are and how you can easily conquer them.  In addition, I find it easier to write about frightening, depressing subjects.  Most of my posts are titled with a certain phobia to educate the audience of that fear’s name and to shed a light on the basic topic of the post.  In a way, they are therapy sessions by explaining the phobia and thinking of ways to overcome it.  The reader is both the patient and therapist. Now, enjoy these chilling illustrations!

Arachnophobia – fear of spiders


Scopophobia – fear of being stared at


Cherophobia – fear of happiness


Somniphobia – fear of sleeping


Claustrophobia – fear of confined spaces


Coulrophobia – fear of clowns


Trypanophobia – fear of needles


Agoraphobia – fear of crowded places


Kenophobia – fear of empty spaces


Athazagoraphobia – fear of being forgotten


Ecclesiophobia – fear of churches


Eisoptrophobia – fear of mirrors


Chronophobia – fear of the future


Blennophobia – fear of slime


Philophobia – fear of falling in love


Pyrophobia – fear of fire


Epistemophobia – fear of knowledge


Automatonophobia – fear of human-like figures


Trypophobia – fear of holes


Bogyphobia – fear of the bogeyman


Thalassophobia – fear of large bodies of water


Tocophobia – fear of childbirth


Ophidiophobia – fear of snakes


Apotemnophobia – fear of amputation


Verbophobia – fear of words


Nyctophobia – fear of darkness


Emetophobia – fear of throwing up


Taphophobia – fear of being buried alive


Pediophobia – fear of dolls


Necrophobia – fear of death


Hylophobia – fear of forests




Phobia – Fear

I know you’re scared of something. Just admit it. Say the words “I am afraid.” It’s okay. I’ll say them with you.

I. Am. Afraid.

I am afraid of many things like physical restriction, losing a close friend or family member to death, losing my faith and even my own life. I’m afraid of what the future holds whether that’s tomorrow or 20 years from now. I am simply afraid.

Fear seems to be the driving factor in life. It constantly controls decisions, actions, words, and even thoughts. Ideas, expressions, and opinions get locked up due to the fear of a judgmental society. It gnaws at the brain and restricts individuality.

The Life of Pi describes this emotion more in-depth:

“I must say a word about fear. It is life’s only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease. It begins in your mind, always. One moment you are feeling calm, self-possessed, happy. Then fear, disguised in the garb of mild-mannered doubt, slips into your mind like a spy. Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. But disbelief is a poorly armed foot soldier. Doubt does away with it with little trouble. You become anxious. Reason comes to do battle for you. You are reassured. Reason is fully equipped with the latest weapons technology. But, to your amazement, despite superior tactics and a number of undeniable victories, reason is laid low. You feel yourself weakening, wavering. Your anxiety becomes dread.

Fear next turns fully to your body, which is already aware that something terribly wrong is going on. Already your lungs have flown away like a bird and your guts have slithered away like a snake. Now your tongue drops dead like an opossum, while your jaw begins to gallop on the spot. Your ears go deaf. Your muscles begin to shiver as if they had malaria and your knees to shake as though they were dancing. Your heart strains too hard, while your sphincter relaxes too much. And so, with the rest of your body. Every part of you, in the manner most suited to it, falls apart. Only your eyes work well. They always pay proper attention to fear.   Quickly you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you’ve defeated yourself.   Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you.

The matter is difficult to put into words. For fear, real fear, such as shakes you to your foundation, such as you feel when you are brought face to face with your mortal end, nestles in your memory like a gangrene: it seeks to rot everything, even the words with which to speak of it. So, you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don’t, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.”

Fear has gripped onto all of us in a very intense way at some point. There’s no denying it’s snatched me and put me into a state of paranoia. It was always living in the back of my head with everything I did. Fear of consequences, judgments, failures, rejections, disappointments, heartbreaks. This emotion has affected my attitude and behavior, my thoughts and words, my relationships with friends and family, my focus and goals. It changed my mentality in a second and rapidly forced my body to freeze up for a moment only to start shivering and shaking the next. It can be extremely complicated to deal with and control.   At times, even in my own experience, it can turn a person hysterically selfish:

“What’s going to happen to me?”

“Why is this happening to me?”

“How am I going to get past this?”

I’ll admit something, I was scared to lose you. In time, enough change had come about that I did lose you. But I still think about you every now and then, hoping you’re living the best life you can. I appreciate all the time we had together and keep those memories with me.

I was scared that we would stop talking to each other. After that happened, I prayed for you every day. To this day, I hope to share a few more memories with you. The last time we talked was 6 months ago. I still remember the times we would go to the meadow and play in the mud, not caring how dirty we got, but enjoying each other.

I was scared that I would disappoint you again. Once it happened for the third time, I put in a great amount of effort to be the person you needed me to be. In time, I reached improvement.

Think about this: what is the scariest thing you’ve seen or been through?

Look where you are now! You’re still alive and well. Yes, you may still be healing but recovery takes times. It will be alright. Fear can linger around all our lives and drag us down. But listen: you can conquer your past, present, and future fears. It’s interesting how this emotion can tear us down so quickly but it also keeps us sane and protected. We all need to be afraid of something or else everyone would be living dangerous lives. No one would be scared to take risks or make terrible decisions. Honestly, we need fear, but we shouldn’t dwell on it so deeply that we lose complete concentration and a total grip on reality. Everyone is different, though, in the way that they cope. Some take longer than others to feel okay again and that is alright. Don’t let people rush you to recover from previous worries.   Soon enough we all gain our courage again. Wonderful things result from fear such as coming out a stronger person, new change, and healthier life.

Just know that it is okay to be afraid.

Franklin D. Roosevelt once stated, “Only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” Once you push past fear itself and find yourself at the peak of the mountain, you’re on top of the world!